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Living (and writing) With Depression and Anxiety

Living with depression and anxiety is hard. Very heard in fact, and I would never wish it on anyone. It’s not fun at all. But like many people out there I do it. I cope. Because I have to. It’s especially hard for me because I have so many things I genuinely WANT to do. Writing, drawing, reading, yard work even! I just completely lack the motivation and energy needed to get these things done. But oh, how I wish I could just wake up in the morning and do all these things, one after another, and all in the same day no less! That’s how it used to be, but not recently. I wish I could get up and have a giant list of tasks, and things, and chores that I plan to do all day, and not shut down. Not get a sudden crippling stomach pain. I really do.

And for any of you who may be out there that say “Oh, depression and anxiety isn’t real, it’s all in your head.” Well for one, of course it fucking is genius. It’s called a MENTAL illness. And for those who say, “Oh, just get up and do something. Just get over it. It’s not that hard.” It is hard actually. And to both of these types of people I say “Bye!” You can leave right now and never come back, because I am done with people like this.

Back on subject! Besides complaining about my illnesses, I’m really just wanting to talk about my writing.

It’s hard for me to start on a project, whether it be a brand new idea or just going back and finishing off an old story. I don’t feel the inspiration, motivation, or energy needed to accomplish it. And I need to slowly do that. Think of creative and fun ways for me to get back into writing. Because even as I just write this simple post, I’m having terrible stomach pains and want to just shut my laptop. But I won’t!

I don’t want to stop writing, or rather, being a writer. I just can’t and I won’t. I’ve always enjoyed it and I always will. No matter if it’s as easy as walking, or a very difficult task that takes me hours just to start. I’m going to write. It’s the fulfillment of being able to let all those words out of your head that just seem to be bouncing around that I want. Being about to create whole other worlds and people. And being able to let your feelings just bleed onto the page, rather then off your skin. It’s a great feeling once I finish a piece, and even once I get started writing it. The problem is just getting started.

So this post is a bit of a mess and all over the place, and I apologize. What I’m trying to say is I’m not going to let whatever is bringing down the rest of my life stand in my way from the one true thing I’ve always loved. And that if you’re having similar problems you shouldn’t either. It doesn’t even have to be writing that’s your one true passion. Just know that, if you’re dealing with mental illness or just tough times, don’t let anything stand in the way of doing what you love. Fight it and break through the impenetrable wall that it’s built itself on. Because I know, and you know, we can do it.

Have any tips for getting my inspiration mojo back?

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Things I Know About Writing

I have been writing for most of my life. Which is a relatively short time considering that some authors don’t publish their first novel until they are 80. Now I don’t know everything about the craft, but there are a few things I know. Or rather I think I know. Or at least might help out and give you a bit of knowledge on the subject. These are by no means a way to live your writing life. But just tidbits here and there that I’ve picked up along the way.

This will be broken up into multiple posts too for shorter readings. As I think up more I will add more posts. There will also be specific posts on some of these subjects in the future. I don’t really have any authority on these subjects or reason to think I know what I’m talking about, but I like to think I do and share what I know.

Write A Lot and Often

If you wish to be a writer, write.

–Epictetus

This is probably the most important one to do and to know out of all of these. Write, just write. Anywhere, everywhere. Anything, everything. Play with setting, genre, characters. This is especially important, I believe, when you’re just starting out. This gives you a chance to grow, practice, and hone your skills, all while finding out where you best fit in this crazy writing world of ours

Write a journal or a short story. Just write something. It doesn’t matter if you write on a bar napkin every night about the regulars. That’s character development, and it’s also writing.
If you can, write every day. If not, set times aside for yourself to just sit down and write. No interruptions or distractions. Just you and the words.

Most important, like I said, especially if you’re just starting, is to write as much as you can about anything. You can stick to one story, or play with a few ideas. The point is you’re getting words down and practicing. Continue reading

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Slamming Your Head Against A Wall Will Make You A Better Writer

Walls. They’re big, stiff, tough, and scary if you’re a writer. Many times writers hit a wall while writing. Sometimes they think its writer’s block, other times it actually is writer’s block.

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Imagine hitting that head first while writing.

I’ve hit such a wall recently and it wasn’t fun, believe me. Going about sixty, wind in my hair. Fingers furiously typing to keep up with my thoughts, all flowing out of me in the most beautiful and poetic of prose. Not a care in the world. Then we start to sputter. My thoughts are there and gone and there and gone. And finally, they’re just gone. Continue reading

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How I Survived The Apocalypse And You Can Too!

The red skies of the Apocalypse?

On a website known as YaHighway there is a weekly post called Road Trip Wednesday. Every week they pose a new question and we, the readers, get to answer. I will probably be doing this every week now; just another thing to add to the long list of things to write. This week’s question was:

What kind of apocalypse do you think would be most interesting to survive through?

The theme of Apocalypse has become rather popular lately in fiction and that is probably what sparked the question. I have to say that I’m actually torn between two different kinds.

The first would be a fall of modern technology, where all the technology in the world shuts off for some reason or another and can not be restored. Communes are started and riots break out, small forms of government pop up all over the place. I think it’s the dark age feel mixed with a modern city overgrown with plant and animal life that really draws me in. Much like in the movie “I Am Legend”.

The second would be a war of some sorts, preferable nuclear, that leaves the entire world scared. Most people don’t survive and those that do either live on their own, constantly battling to survive, or in make shift colonies. The last is actually what might happen in a story idea I have.

I also enjoy a Robot Apocalypse where they take over.

Wow this became a much longer post than I intended. I hope it was interesting and answer the question alright.

My question for you is what type of apocalypse do you like to read about most? Is there a certain type of apocalypse that isn’t as mainstream as you wish it as?

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A Year and A Half of Confusion and Happiness

Today’s Blog prompt was to write about my current relationship:

The day I first saw Katrina I knew I had to talk to her, and of course, flirt with her. I knew I was going to like her. Mostly because my friend James and I made fun of her when she went to the front of the class to tell how she got cheap textbooks. It’s that old saying, “if they’re mean to you it means they like you.”

A little over a month and we were dating, although many people said we were dating after two weeks of meeting. It was a very great relationship and probably one of the best ones I’ve had. It ended a year and a month later. We remained friends though, and after sometime, started going on dates here and there. Continue reading

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30 Day Challenges

ImageThis here is a 30 Day Blog Challenge I found on “Reflections on Life Thus Far” here on WordPress. I liked the questions (or prompts) quite a lot I decided to try it out. Plus this will help me with writing here everyday, other than my “A Writer’s Day” Posts.

So I’m thinking about doing this one, using the prompts for both fiction and non-fiction posts and stories. I will try my best to keep up with it and actually do it each day, every day for the month of September. Since it already started though, I’ll have to do two tonight. Woo!

I also found another 30 Day Challenge. But this one is strictly for creative writing prompts. So I believe I’ll try and do both. If I can’t keep up with both for the whole month, I’ll just stick to the Blog Challenge, and maybe save the creative writing one for October.

I’ll be posting these here everyday, and might even follow them up at the end with a Prompt of my own for anyone to try. Continue reading

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Writing As a Hobby

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Photo by Charles Jeffrey Danoff

I saw this picture earlier and I just wanted to write a small post about it. There’s no doubt that it’s a good picture. I like the blurring, the moleskine-esque journal, and what appears to be a child’s hands holding on tightly.

We should encourage our child to write and be creative. We should let them make up fantasy worlds in their heads and make stories out of them. Because one day that idea might make mommy and daddy very rich parents. But that’s not the point. The point is it’s a cute picture.

However, my point isn’t about the picture. It’s about the text. “Writing is my hobby.” I don’t terribly love calling writing a “hobby”. I take it far too seriously for it to just be my little “hobby” or my “typing”. Writing is my job and my sole passion in life. You could say my soul’s passion. Teehee.

Point being, referring to writing as just a hobby belittles it in my eyes. Writing isn’t my “off-work relaxation pleasure”, or my “hunny on the side”. Writing is my job and my life. It’s mostly all I think of and all I do as of late.

I’m sure some people just use it as a fun little “hobby”, but for real writers I feel like it makes the entire process seem like a joke. Perhaps I’m being a bit cynical.

If you take a look a the 70 year old man who just lost his wife and picked up writing to deal with the grief and having nothing else to do. Then yes, it would be his hobby. Or would it be his therapy for dealing with such a terribly event. And the possibility for a wonderful memoir of their life together.

Or we could take the middle age house wife, who writes instead of selling jewelry out of her home. She writes because she’s bored most days and needs something mindless to occupy her time. Her little hobby. Or it could be her only escape from the real world where her husband doesn’t care for her anymore and they’re in the red every month. Her only escape from reality and the terribly things going on. Her call to arms against house wives who would just stand by and do nothing.

You can see where I’m going with this, it’s getting a bit too philosophical for me. But my point being, yes anyone can write and anyone can call it a hobby. But I believe there’s always a deeper connection to the writing and a deeper meaning behind why these people write than just as a “hobby”.

Well, There’s my little rant on Writing as a “Hobby”. Hope you enjoyed.

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