It’s been quite a long time since I’ve written anything and I’m not proud of that fact. Writing used to be all I cared about. It used to be my escape from the world, reality, and even my own thoughts and fears. It was the one thing I could do to take my mind off everything and really enjoy myself. I was happy about the content I was creating and happy about all the great people I was meeting as well as the great tips I was learning from said people. But then I just stopped.
I fell out of writing. You could say I fell out of love with writing. I’m not sure why or what made me stop. I just slowly moved away from writing and into other things. I drew for a while, then moved to a few different games in that time. But now I want to write, again.
I want to get back into it and have that great feeling when I’m creating something wonderful. I want to feel that satisfying feeling of finishing a story. I want to remember what it’s like to write and write and just write all day long! Looking forward to waking up and doing early morning writing sprints, then spending the rest of the day working on other projects. World building, planning, summary’s, character development. I want to do it all again. Times where I knew I should’ve been in bed but couldn’t pull myself away from my story even if it was 3am.
I NEED it back. Writing was, at one point, the only thing to give me happiness and enjoyment. I feel like if I get back to that I’ll be in a much better state than I am currently.
Sure it’ll take time to get back to how I was. I know that. I don’t expect to write thousands of words a day like before. But I want to start, as small as I have to as long as I start. I still want to write a book.And I still want to write short stories everyday.
The hardest part for me right now is having motivation and inspiration to actually write something. It feels so hard for me to even right a few lines down. I always thought writing would be the one thing I would never grow out of or stop doing, but I did. I’m disappointed with myself for that fact. But I am trying to start again, and that’s all I can really do at this point. And right now, any progress is still progress in the right direction to me.
Even if this post doesn’t get read by anyone, and even if it’s just a long rant about me not actually writing, it’s still writing something. So from this point on, I’m going to make it a point, a challenge, to write as much as I can everyday. Whether that be a line, a short story, or a chapter, it’s the writing itself that counts. If I miss a day I won’t kick myself, but just try to get that much more excited for the next day of writing.
So, this is my public decree. I’m going to announce it for everyone. Hopefully this will help me work harder towards my goal and be held accountable for my actions. And that’s all I can do at this point.
What do you do when you are getting out of a long writing slump? How do you find inspiration and motivation to write? Do I start small on stories, or reread my novel and try to get back into it? Will you help me keep on track whether it be on here or on twitter?